Personal testimonies are a way that God saves. Today I’m sharing with you my testimony and how God saved a sinner like me.
As I’m sitting here today writing this post I am overwhelmed with God’s goodness and sovereignty over all things. Looking back at the person I was just ten years ago just leaves me in awe at what He is done in that time in my life, alone.
Buckle your seat belt because this particular testimony is a powerful, and emotional one. I pray that you are shaken in your faith and encouraged by the end of reading about my testimony.
Now, it’s worth noting that this is not the typical content you will find on my blog. It is because I feel led to share my story with you, that I’m sharing this with you today.
Growing up in a Christian home is not something I got to experience. I did, however, attend church services with my mom until age 8 consistently. Knowing what it truly meant to love God was something I did not understand. My dad did not attend church with us.
At age 8, I was baptized. Once I got older, I realized that I didn’t do that for myself, but because it was something my mom signed me up to do. Though I was grateful for my mom’s efforts to lead me to The Lord, I did not get to see what it looks like to walk in faith outside of church on Sundays.
Later that year, my parents got divorced and I moved to Idaho with my mom. For the next 10 years we randomly would try out different “Christian” churches. This was not a consistent thing, sometimes we would go months without going to a church service. Aside from that, I did not read my Bible, though I had one.
Looking back at that time of life for me it amazes me that God never left me, even though I didn’t know He was there. Lacking a stable, earthly father figure, I gave into the words that high school boys told me. As you can imagine, this got me into a world of trouble. When I was 18 years old, God shook me and everything changed.
I do need to mention that God does not need to do a miraculous thing like this to be worthy of our praise. Of course, I wish that this did not happen. God could have used anything to shake me to my core and draw me near to him, but He chose this.
Just because your testimony isn’t like mine, doesn’t mean that you are any less responsible for glorifying Him. I wish, more than anything, that my testimony was boring. That I had been saved at a young age and never experienced any of the hurt, heartache, and tragedy that I did. But, I am SO grateful and blessed that He chose to save me. For that, I will continue to share my testimony and glorify Him through it.
How God saved a sinner like me
At the time that I graduated high school, I had a boyfriend. This boy was one that I thought I had a future with, per my emotions and what I had been told. It’s worth noting that we were of different religious backgrounds. Now, I was going to church somewhat around this time but it was not consistent. I definitely was not taking my faith seriously.
After high school, this boyfriend went off to the military. Our relationship was somewhat that of a rollercoaster. On and off, but I loved him so I stuck it out. When he came into town on Veteran’s day leave, I couldn’t wait to see him and pick up where we left off. That’s when everything changed.
The tragedy God used for good
We were staying at a friend’s house, alone, and experienced a horrible tragedy. Carbon Monoxide leaked through the apartment, killing my boyfriend. I was also poisoned, but God spared me. I will never know why God chose to save me. Because logically, it did not make sense for me to survive. My body mass and weight was much smaller than my military boyfriend. The gas should have filled my body quicker, killing me first.
Looking back and recalling this event I remember everything rather clearly. I remember hearing him fall in the bathroom, which is what woke me. To next, crying on the floor and not knowing what was wrong. I even urinated on the floor because I could not get up! I remember checking the thermostat just before all of this happened, as it felt hot, and it was 86 degrees in the apartment. Now, why wouldn’t I open a window or figure out how to change the temperature? I do not know. For some unknown reason, I found a fan to plug in and turn on and called it good.
The next thing I knew, it was after noon the next day, I had slept wayyyyy in. I woke up to my boyfriend expired next to me. At 18 years old, I had no idea what was going on and my mind was foggy. I quickly called the owner of the apartment and told them to call 911, as I could not even remember the address. Which, I later learned was due to my own body being poisoned. If I had gotten just 10% more Carbon Monoxide leaked into my system, I would have died.
God alone saved me! I owe my life to glorifying and serving Him. He has since blessed me with a wonderful, God-fearing husband, and 3 children!
Who God made me, today
Today, you can find me busily working at home caring for my family. I enjoy wholesome/traditional cooking, discipling my children, praying, serving my sisters in Christ, and being outdoors. God has blessed me tremendously with a wonderful, luxurious life. I’ve given my whole life to Him, it is my prayer that I can encourage other women to be godly women and love Jesus with all of their hearts!
Sola Gratia- saved by grace alone!
Leave a comment if you feel encouraged by my testimony today, to God alone be the glory!
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